So I’ve been debating on writing this because even I get tired of how weak and miserable I sound on this blog. But at some point in the future when I am healed and able to look back and just observe my thought’s…I want to be able to do that. Still struggling with food and … Continue reading
Sometimes anxiety likes to hide around corners and pop out at you when you are least expecting it. It’s rare for me, I can usually feel it slowly moving throughout my body. It starts with tingles and prickly feelings, and ends with waves of tears and uncontrollable shaking. Sometimes it never reaches the final stages … Continue reading
Am I selfish? I try to focus so hard on being considerate to those around me. I do not always succeed, but I try and I think that’s worth something. It’s a violent circle I mull over in my head. If I focus too much on how I affect other people then am I not … Continue reading
Okay.Being a bigger person, or choosing not to engage, is shit. It’s really difficult. I’ve been spending more time outdoors and just being more active. I find it alleviates most of my anxiety. Most, not all. I go on several nature walks throughout the day. Listen to music and just sort of observe and appreciate … Continue reading
I have been way more open about my anxiety and other issues, with everyone in my life. Not like I go out and shout it with a megaphone, but when it’s an occurring issue and people ask, I no longer hide it with: “I’m just really tired.” “I don’t know.” “I’m fine.” “I’m just being … Continue reading
Today will be a tough day, not that I want it to be. Or enjoy it in any way. In fact, I’m miserable. There are days where I’m at complete war with my body and with that little parasite in my mind. The parasite that tells me to not eat, to go workout, to run … Continue reading
Music is a common means of escape. Some of us dance to it to express joy, some of us listen to find a message we can relate to, some of us make music to convey what we cannot otherwise say. It’s different for everybody, but it’s also there for everybody. There is a song that … Continue reading
